When life is more than you bargained for.
Consider the following scenario:
A person visits his doctor or psychiatrist in a state of near-suicide. After probing for other possible causes of the patient's condition, the psychiatrist concludes the culprit is clinical depression, and prescribes a standard antidepressant.
The pill works uncommonly fast. Within two or three days the patient's energy has returned, his dark mood lifts, and for one brief shining moment he knows what it's like to feel normal, and even better than normal.
His mind is racing now. He starts making grand plans. Meanwhile, his mind keeps racing. He thinks this is just a side effect that will go away, so he takes another pill. After all, the very last thing he wants to happen is to crash back into that horrible depression of his, knowing full well that next time there may be no return.
But his racing mind refuses to stop. Instead, it cranks into an even higher gear. He cannot sleep, his heart is pounding, he is talking a mile a minute, and soon he is vividly hallucinating. Roller-coaster is totally inadequate to describe the experience. One is not driving the brain. Rather, the brain is driving the person. In extreme cases, the victim will rage completely out of control, and in one extraordinary situation, a person actually robbed a bank and was acquitted.
That, my friends, is the closest modern medicine has come to a laboratory test for a psychiatric condition. The illness is bipolar disorder, also known as manic depression. Toss an antidepressant at a person with bipolar - with no mood stabilizing medication to hold the antidepressant action at bay - and watch him flip out.
Ping! Flip City. Totally manic.
The reason I happen to know so much about this is that it happened to me. Thankfully, I did not rob a bank, but I know from my experience how it could happen. For the crisis intervention psychiatrist who later saw me, it was a no-brainer. "Bipolar mixed," she wrote on the script with no comment. With those two words, my life changed. I was branded.
By the same token, I was also relieved. After a lifetime of denial, I knew what I was up against. Having identified my adversary, I could begin to fight it, where I stood an excellent chance of winning.
So how come my first psychiatrist did not pick it up? I consider myself lucky. Most people with bipolar do not receive a correct diagnosis until their third or fourth try, usually years later. And unless we happen to land in the hospital in the midst of a wildly manic episode, there is not much for the doctor to go on.
I was depressed. At the time, I had no knowledge of bipolar in the family (since my diagnosis I have discovered it exists on both sides). All I talked about was my depression. All of them - my depression within a depression, my depression following a depression, my depression following the depression on top of the depression, and so on. My "ups" were what I mistook for normal behavior, so I did not feel compelled to bring them to my psychiatrist's attention. Besides, considering the state I was in, he wasn't about to mistake me for the type who danced on tables.
Mania and Hypomania
The ups - let's talk about the ups for awhile. We all have our moments of elation, giddiness, or bliss. This is perfectly normal, as are those days when we get up on the "right" side of bed and the world seems to spin in our direction. If someone has hit the genetic jackpot, he or she can feel something like this nearly everyday, with fame and fortune and friends gravitating to him or her like iron filings to a magnet.
Indeed, people with bipolar disorder have proved to be some of society's most smashing success stories.
But until we learn to successfully manage our illness, our "gift" represents an extremely liability. Sometimes we crash back into depression. Other times that intoxicating sense of elation starts escalating out of control. One may start talking fast, spending money, and engaging in inappropriate activities. Or the magic may start to wear off, as winning behavior deteriorates into crass and embarrassing caricature. Sometimes the elation turns sour, into a dysphoric rage that makes social and family life hell for all concerned.
So terrible is the havoc that bipolar disorder can bring on that a University of Texas at Houston study has estimated the present value of lifetime cost of the illness for an individual ranges from $11,720 for those with a single manic episode to $624,785 for those nonresponsive or with chronic episodes. This includes medical care, as well as unemployment and reduced earnings.
Generally, someone in a state of sustained elevation is said to have "hypomania." Sadly, that person is the last one to think he or she needs help. Either the high is too intoxicating or the problem lies with the rest of the world.
Full blown mania turns up the heat. If one hasn't wrecked his life while in a state of hypomania, he or she is a prime candidate going into mania. These tend to be your 911 cases, bordering on and breaking through into psychosis. Nevertheless, an antipsychotic medication or tranquilizer can bring down a person with mania in a matter of hours or less, though long-term stabilization can be a lot more problematical.
But even with our brains firmly held in place by the best medical science has to offer, there is no peace of mind. At any minute, any second, at the slightest provocation, we are all too aware that the insides of our skulls can break loose from their pharmacological moorings and indiscriminately tear down what took us a lifetime to build.
Simply losing a night's sleep may trigger a manic episode, not to mention the stress from work or a relationship breakup. And past trauma, bad lifestyle choices, and failure to manage stress conspire to set us up like sitting ducks.
Hence the need for vigilance. Many people with bipolar disorder are encouraged to keep mood journals, which they and their psychiatrists track like meteorologists keeping watch on baby hurricanes in the Caribbean.
Now let's talk about those depressions, the flip side of bipolar disorder. In one way, there is nothing to distinguish bipolar depression from "unipolar" depression, from mild to severe, with similar suicide rates of about 15 percent. But now we are beginning to discover that bipolar depression may be an entirely different animal, involving different biological processes and treatments (more on this in Bipolar Depression)
Sadly, the depressive side of bipolar disorder has been overlooked by the experts. As Michael Thase MD of the University of Pittsburgh observed at the 2002 American Psychiatric Association annual meeting: "Although manic episodes are often more the emergent and notorious phase of bipolar affective disorder, depressive episodes last longer, are typically harder to treat, and result in the high ultimate risk of suicide."
The course of the illness is speeded up in some people, so that they are known as "rapid-cyclers, who can go up and down and back again, sometimes in a matter of hours. Since rapid-cyclers represent a moving target, treatment is difficult. Antidepressants can induce mania, and antimania medications can induce depression. Analyzing a Stanley Foundation trial, Robert Post MD of the NIMH observed in Bipolar Disorder: "This still left some 30-40 percent of our patients inadequately responsive."
Then there are those with "mixed states," who can be up and down at the same time, with agitated depression or dysphoric mania. Some people with unipolar depression can also experience some of these symptoms, and here is where depression gets especially dangerous, for if one is feeling suicidal while in an agitated or manic state, then one has the energy to carry out the deed.
These ups and downs - the manic highs and the depressive lows - are what define bipolar disorder, and many authorities are content to leave it at that, as if our brains were simple pendulums swinging from one extreme than the other. But the mind, as well as bipolar, is far more subtle and insidious - and occasionally beneficent - than that, and in the next article we will explore why.
From Stanley Bipolar Network patient data of its first 250 outpatients:
A 2003 Stanley Foundation survey of its next 258 of its next bipolar outpatients, 76 percent with bipolar I, found they were depressed three times more than they were manic (33.2 percent of the year vs 10.8 percent). Despite being on 4.1 psychiatric meds, 62.8 percent had four or more mood episodes a year, two thirds were substantially impacted by their illness, 26.4 were ill for more than three fourths of the year, and 40.7 were intermittently ill.
According to the NIMH, bipolar disorder affects approximately 2.3 million American adults, or about 1.2 percent of the US population age 18 and older in a given year, equally among men and women. A 2003 University of Texas Medical Branch Galveston and other centers study suggests that the prevalence rate for bipolar could be three times as high. Researchers sent the Mood Disorders Questionnaire (which you can find on the website of the DBSA and other sites) to 127,800 people age 18 and above selected to represent the US adult population. Of the 85,358 (66.8 percent) who responded, the positive screen for bipolar I or II was 3.4 percent, and 3.7 percent when adjusted for the nonresponse bias. Only 19.8 percent receiving positive screens reported receiving a diagnosis of bipolar from a physician while 31.2 percent reported a diagnosis of unipolar depression. Positive screens were far more common in young adults and those with low income. Migraine, allergies, asthma, and alcohol and drug dependence were "substantially higher" among those with positive screens.
A 2003 Case Western Reserve mail survey of 85,458 adults found that more than half those with symptoms of bipolar were at high risk of being fired or laid off, with nearly half reporting poor job performance. In addition, symptomatic individuals were only half as likely to marry and twice as likely to separate or divorce. The survey also found bipolar is eight times more likely to affect those aged 18 to 24 than those over 55, and that people in this age group reported that symptoms disrupted their lives 70 percent of the time.
Findings from the McLean Hospital-Harvard First-Episode Mania Study that tracked 166 bipolar patients two to four years following their first hospitalization for mania or a mixed episode found fifty percent achieved syndromal (cluster of symptoms) recovery by 5.4 weeks, 98 percent by two years, but 28 percent remained symptomatic. Factors associated with shorter time to recovery for half the subjects were female sex, shorter hospitalization, and lower initial depression ratings. Only 43 percent achieved functional recovery (these patients tended to be older with shorter hospitalizations). Forty percent experienced a new episode of mania (20 percent) or depression (20 percent) within two years of syndromal recovery (19 percent switched phases without recovery). Predictors of mania recurrence were initial psychosis, lower occupational status, and initial manic presentation while predictors of depression onset were higher occupational status, initial mixed presentation, and any co-occurring illness.
For Part II, please click here.
First published 2000, reviewed Feb 10, 2008
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